Another night past 2:30 AM and I can't sleep.  Being in pain sucks, your always pissy with people you love and you do not have any patience.  I just want to get back to living a frigging normal life and not be depressed about being in constant pain. 

It is rough when you can't sleep and then when you do get a good nights sleep you do not want to get up out of bed because you don't know if you'll ever get sleep again. 

I don't get this fucking worker's compensation system.  I'd have gotten way better care and suffered a lot less had I been able to use my personal medical insurance.  I'd probably had been back to work already if not close to it considering it sounds like the recovery time is 6 to 9 months after surgery.  I'd probably had only lost some of the summer instead of losing all of it. 

I'm very lucky to have a wife that is so patient because I'm going out of my mind.  This whole process just sucks; You'd think that this states Legislature would understand that by keeping people out of work for a long time that they are taking away from the states coffers by not paying income taxes.